Lex

"I’m in love with somebody who can never love me back."

"What hurts more? The absence or the goodbye?"

"

I’ve got a map of self discovery permanently embed in my skin
If you follow the routes you can see some of the heartache I’ve been in
Most won’t find it worth the read
Considering it will only plant dark seeds, I’d probably agree

This is not a story with a fairytale ending
That’s also not the message I’m sending
Fairytales are story’s for a reason
Real life is more like the seasons

Sometimes the winter is so cold that for a second you believe you’ll never be warm again
But before you know it summer rolls around and you’ll be heaving in the heat like an old asthmatic man
Sometimes your heart will feel so heavy you can feel it throbbing in your toes
But other times you’ll feel on top of the world and bliss radiating through your bones

To me, this makes life more hopeful than it is
So I’ll just desperately hold onto this

"

"How do you tell people? How do you tell them that you’re exhausted even though you slept for 10 hours? How do you tell them that you need a break from talking and smiling and simply being near them? How do you tell them that although you love them, you so desperately need to be alone tonight?"

inkskinned:

I’m sorry, I love you, it’s just that I told you the suitcase on your floor made me feel like you never moved in or out of any life, always going, always in the process of coming home. You told me I make problems where there should be only sunshine. 

I’m sorry, I love you, it’s just that you were never good with words and I was never good with silence and I used to think I could write or sing or talk enough to fill up all that emptiness that lives inside of both of us. It haunts me that when I need a lighthouse, you find other oceans to watch over. 

 I’m sorry, I love you, it’s just that I begged you to show me any small proof of how you felt, I told you my nightmares were full of your lips calmly telling me you’d finally gotten over me, I told you they were too real and I just needed something to settle what was eating me. You laughed at the idea of believing in dreams. 

 I’m sorry, I love you, it’s just that a week ago I tripped over that suitcase and I can tell it’s going to leave a scar. 

 I’m sorry, I love you, it’s just that I’m sorry I love you, and you would never even notice the difference in meaning.

(via inkskinned)

kafkamilktea:

dippers-internet-history:

what to say to someone who says sorry a lot

• u didn’t do anything wrong its ok
  
• don’t worry about it u didn’t do anything wrong
  

what not to say to someone who says sorry a lot

• omg stop saying sorry so much 
  

Constant apologizing is a side effect of emotional abuse so don’t be a dick about someone who does that

(via they-messed-me-up)

"As you get older, you really start to understand more about why people drink the night away, smoke their lungs black, or throw themselves off buildings."

"Depression is the most unpleasant thing I have ever experienced… . It is that absence of being able to envisage that you will ever be cheerful again. The absence of hope. That very deadened feeling, which is so very different from feeling sad."

"

do you remember the first time you were called annoying?
how your breath stopped short in your chest
the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze
the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue.
your eyes never left the floor that day.
you were 13.

you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,”
apologies littering every other sentence,
words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years.
i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious.
all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard
for 3 minutes
for 10 minutes
for 2 hours
forever.

there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, your heart;
mostly because they can’t handle their own.

but you will never be
and have never been
“too much.”

"

"I just want someone who won’t get annoyed when I text them six times or in all caps. Someone I can go on long drives with and can sing along to the radio with. Someone I can eat pizza with at 2am and kiss at 6pm. Someone who chooses me everyday and never thinks twice about it."